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Sinking in
By sandi | November 22, 2008
“But Mom, how will I give you your good morning hug?” ~ Kimberly
Since I have very little to worry about on the adoption front now, all worry efforts are put into leaving the girls. It has nothing to do with worrying about their physical care, I know they will have fun with Grammy. It is more about me, and just not being with them, not even being on the same continent as them. 
I get all choked up when I think about it and cry easily at the mention of it. I am going to miss them more than I can imagine and I imagine it will be pretty hard. I have never been away from them for more than two days. When I go out to dinner with my husband we talk mainly about the kids and then we rush back to them before too long.
We have started to count down to the number of days until Mommy and Daddy leave. We have talked to them about the number of nights we will be gone, but until this morning it didn’t really sink in. The look in Kimberly’s eyes as she expressed how she will miss the simple gesture of our morning hug said it all. While this is an amazing and wonderful journey it not without a price.
Bill and I have many different plans to fill their love tanks as high as we can. We know that even though we do all of that it won’t be the same as being there when they need or want us. We will miss each other terribly and I know that there is no way that we can really fix that. They will not be alone, we will be half way across the world and we will be missing them as well.
To Kimberly’s revelation this morning I could barely muster a “you can’t,” as I hugged her even more tightly. Then I assured her that she could save them all up and we would have a HUGE hug when we saw each other again.
Topics: Family News, Kimberly, Quote of the Day | 4 Comments »
November 22nd, 2008 at 6:47 am
your girls are just the best! And looking at the pictures just now I saw how much of you is in Annie’s face. amazing how a different picture can show you something. And hello?! Kimmie & Mimi look JUST like Bill (they have his scrunched-up-when-you-smile eyes) and almost look like twins. Amazing! I’m sure in about 2 months I start to see you and Bill in Paul, because he’ll start to pick up your mannerisms. how fun!
I know you are fretting leaving the girls, but I’m so excited you’ll be meeting your son. Funny how life is always a balancing act.
November 22nd, 2008 at 7:48 am
Hugs Sandi. I can’t imagine what you are going through.
November 22nd, 2008 at 1:17 pm
oh, you’re making me tear up over here. I can imagine how difficult it will be but having Paul in your arms will provide much comfort.
I know a lot of parents that leave little surprises for the kids to open for each day they are gone…oh, great, I’ve just given you MORE to do!
November 22nd, 2008 at 10:48 pm
Awww – they will be missing you almost as much as you miss them, I bet… It was harder on me than on them for sure. Good luck filling your hug tanks before you go!!! I am so excited for you!