Thoughts
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Wednesday, August 25th, 2010It has been 4 months since someone has rubbed the top of my head and called me “little Sandi.” It may not seem like a lot but it means a lot to me. I miss my Dad. I miss him all the time. I want to call him or drop by and see him. I [...]
All By Ourselves
Monday, August 23rd, 2010On Saturday Bill and I escaped calmly walked out from our house and left Grammy in charge of the kids. We left and spent the time together at the Arizona Biltmore. The Biltmore is a very lovely hotel and one we had been meaning to spend some time at but never got around to. When [...]
Abundance
Thursday, August 19th, 2010One of the main drawbacks to having a huge pantry is that sometimes it get stuffed full of food. We are currently in that situation. It is also a sign that the kids have been shopping with me a lot. We have so many cereal varieties down there! The shelf above it is lined with [...]
Heartache
Saturday, August 14th, 2010Tomorrow is my Father’s birthday. He won’t be here to celebrate. It breaks my heart. Tuesday is Elizabeth’s birthday. She isn’t here. Every year this date opens that wound and makes my heart ache. “Break a vase, and the love that reassembles the fragments is stronger than that love which took its symmetry for granted [...]
A Father’s love
Thursday, July 22nd, 2010There is nothing in the world that compares to love. Love is such a strong emotion. It gives us great hope in life and brings us great sadness in death. One thing I have realized is that the relationship I had with my Father was unique. Many people have issues and strained relationships. I was [...]
Mothering
Sunday, July 4th, 2010Some days I search for meaning in my life. I am a very purpose driven person. I make goals and achieve them on a constant basis. If I am without a life plan I flounder. I need the focus and drive that I get from setting and achieving goals. Consequently Mothering has always been a [...]
Second Chances
Tuesday, June 29th, 2010In life you don’t always get second chances. I am sure that my Dad thought he would have a health scare and get a second chance. He didn’t. You don’t always get a second chance. Make sure you really live every single day of your life and don’t count on a second chance to really [...]
Bittersweet
Tuesday, June 15th, 2010Every single day there is a bittersweet moment. A moment that is perfect and wonderful and yet hard. Tonight I went shopping at the mall with the kids and my Mother. We had a delightful time. We ate dinner, walked around window shopping, trying on clothes and purchasing some stuff. We had simple and pure [...]
I’m not as strong as you think
Thursday, June 10th, 2010A huge part of me is grieving. I have lost so many things recently. First and foremost I have lost my Father. Not a day goes by that I don’t shed a tear over this. Not a moment goes by that I don’t wish he wasn’t still here. My life is never going to be [...]
Waiting on a facelift
Tuesday, June 8th, 2010If you are like me you may go nuts if you see this lovely tan background anymore. The adorable family picture, taken 2 days after Paul was home, is so far out of date it makes me batty. Fear not, a redesign is in the works!!!!! I am so excited! I have a nice and [...]
Loss
Wednesday, April 28th, 2010I am at a loss. I have lost my Father. He passed away peacefully at 9:15 am on April 27, 2010. Though he is in heaven and I will meet him again, I have lost his daily presence in my life. I have lost my innocence. While it seems crazy that I am 35 and [...]
Trying to pick up the pieces
Monday, April 26th, 2010It has been 5 days since I first received word that my Father was ill. Since then it has been a whirlwind of heartbreaking moments. There are things I am so glad I saw and things I wish I had never heard. My Father had a massive heart attack. He then suffered from strokes rendering [...]
Can I make a wish
Wednesday, April 21st, 2010Today I had several of the hardest conversations I have had in my life. The first one happened about 5 am with my Mother. I met her in the hospital waiting room to discuss the massive heart attack my Father had just had. As I sat there with her I found it hard to process [...]
Punishments
Monday, March 15th, 2010Lately we have found ourselves having to dish out real punishments. No longer can we get by with redirecting or time out with the older two. Our older girls are all well aware of the rules and limitations around our house and they do things with a much more deliberate intent. We know we have [...]
Be the Match
Friday, February 12th, 2010Recently I looked into Be the Match. As I was filling out the registration form I stopped for a moment. There was a moment of reservation. If it were only myself I would have no trouble signing up right away. The reservation wasn’t because I felt like I couldn’t do it, it was more because [...]
Birthday Party Madness
Sunday, January 31st, 2010Weeks can go by without a mention of a classmate’s birthday party and then, without warning, we have back to back parties on both weekend days. It can be draining. For me and for the children. We haven’t had a weekend without back to back parties in 3 weeks. that means we haven’t had a [...]
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
Wednesday, January 20th, 2010Last week Annie and Kimberly studied about Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. in school. They learned about the horrible facts of racism in America. When they came home they were horrified. As soon as Kimberly started to tell me what she learned she got big tears in her eyes. She said, “and my little bro [...]
National Adoption Awareness Month
Monday, November 9th, 2009November is National Adoption Awareness Month. What this means to me is a time to further celebrate and tell others about the miracle that is adoption. I won’t bore you with a list of all the blessings adoption has brought to my life, mainly because it would be everything, but also because I know if [...]
Flashback
Monday, November 2nd, 2009I generally don’t do flashback posts but I am making an exception this time. Last year on this date I posted this post. I still find it very poignant and I am still striving to accomplish this. Learning to handle the many moods and activities of life requires solitude. Do not let the demands of [...]
Birthday Boy
Friday, August 7th, 2009Happy Birthday Bill. Hope you enjoy the relaxing day we have planned for you.
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